virgin blogger lost

well silly me didn't think that people i didn't know would read a blog i wrote...... not that i minded, i am just saying i am alittle lost...one day i found my way to see other bloggers and then the next i can only see mine, maria's and dawns. i guess i will get use to it. i am open to any suggestions....

just the thought of her leaving

Just the thought of my beautiful sweet granddaughter Alyssa moving 4 hours away to Florida, just brought tears to my eyes…. this is the second time I have heard her speak of it…the first time it bothered me somewhat but I let it go thinking that Katie wouldn’t move away from her family…. but to have her mention it again…uggg it just made me depressed…just the thought of them moving to Florida…4 hours in the opposite direction of my other family…WOW ……  I have had a few hours to let it sink in and I just can’t concentrate…. I know that some people are thinking I am over reacting and others seem to understand where I am coming from. Yes I know I have let myself get overly attached to that lil Indian baby…but she is just so loveable and the best granddaughter you could ask for…..

I know that I would survive if it did happen but I feel like Katie wouldn’t be happy so far away from her family. I remember making a similar move when my Josh was just a year old…..I just up and moved away to Virginia with my first love…thinking he would take care of me and Josh…but I was too much of a family person that it was much harder than I thought….I so missed everyone…I remember the day I moved…having to say my goodbyes.…I even remember my best friend Maria crying cause I was moving away…I remember it like yesterday…I stayed less than a year and my gramma and pappap drove 12 hours to come and get me and Josh and we moved back to Georgia.

I want Katie to be happy just as much as much as I want Alyssa to be just 10-15 minutes away. I will support her for she is my grandbaby’s momma…

I just had to vent out my feelings of hurt…and ask the Lord to help my heart handle whatever is to be.

Love is a powerful feeling of emotion…. Love hurts just as much as it feels good.

Life wouldn’t be worth living without love…although sometimes I get tired of the hurt that I wish I didn’t love but I shouldn’t really say that because I’m thankful I have Alyssa to love.  

Ok…. enough of my rattling on about it.

first post

well, its like 2am....we went to san marcos for dinner tonight and i had a nice margarita at dinner and when i got home at 7...i was soo tired, i fell asleep only to find myself wide awake now and i got work in a few hours....but i have to admit i love to be awake when everyone else is asleep...i can have "my time" checking out facebook and clicked on maria's blog and this is where i find myself blogging. just what i need another thing to keep me on this computer more...but i love it...

well my first blog entry will be short but i will end it with...i love my family....reading marias blog about her childhood really got me to thinking about mine. i find it hard to believe i am 38 years old...that i have raised josh and this current chapter of life is still being a full time mom to karlie who is 11 and a gramma to alyssa who is about to be one....wow at life and how it changes so much...life is going by so fast...i mean i find it very important to leave something behind to make sure my kids know how much i love them....i remember when josh was a baby...omg almost 20 years ago...but i use to pray for the Lord to keep me alive to raise him..then karlie came and i kept praying the same thing...Lord please let me live long enough to raise my kids...but now I got alyssa and I just don't want to leave this world anytime soon...Life is full of heartache but at the same time it's full of alot of wonderful things.

Later friends and family.....love you